Stay High (Tove Lo)

At this moment, yes, right this minute, I am leaving Ottawa. I am on my way to Toronto, so I can spend 6 hours there until I get to bus it home. 

These past couple of days have been amazing. Each day we did something different, but yet the same, but it was all so much fun. I haven't laughed this hard until I cried, I haven't shared my soul so truthfully to feel better, and I haven't felt so welcomed as if I am part of the family. 

Some background:

My friend Kristina and I have been friends for quite sometime. I've known her since my first couple of years in Canada, through our Russian ballet school in Toronto. Ballet was the place I went to escape my reality. This was the place that I had friends, that I felt welcome, that I felt like people actually accepted me there. Elementary school wasn't necessarily the easiest time for me. When I went to ballet I felt like I could be myself, I could escape from trying to pretend to be this other person so I could have friends, so I could fit in. 

Every minute I spent during this trip I felt this wonderful feeling that I cannot explain. I could be myself. Not that I am not myself all the time [now], but I could be more free, unleash the "real" me, to a full 100%. 

I cannot wait to see this wonderful family again. 

[To explain the number of pictures of me:] 

[we took about 500 throughout the entire weekend, not all of me of course]

I was a "model" for a day. Kristina is a photographer, she loves taking pictures. I think she really has a talent, all pictures no matter how what face I made, turned out beautiful. 

This one has to be one of my favourites! 

We went out of drinks. 

Canada Day is coming up soon! 

So depending on when you are reading this, Happy Canada Day! 

We go up, then come down

Right now I am in Ottawa but I will be doing a #tbt type of post (yes, yes I know it isnt thursday).

So this past Sunday I drove from my place to Wonderland. It took about an hour or so (I may have been going fast), but I finally got there, in my non-air conditioned diesel car that I borrowed from my brother.
It was an amazing trip.
We laughed. We rode rollercoasters. We ate food (and got an extra pizza because ours had hair on it).

I want to spend as much time with my friends as I possible can before I leave for a year.

Look how happy we look to be waiting in line.

For the next couple days I am in Ottawa staying at this beautiful girls house. We've known each other for quite some time now. We met at a ballet school I went to when I first came to Canada. We've already reminisced through many memories and continue to laugh and create new memories again. 

Everyone had a successful day, my sister caught some fish, I caught some fish...

...my phone went scuba diving.

Now let me tell you a story:

Mom: "Hey Ana, want to go boating?"

Me: "Definitely, let me just take my phone so I can take pictures"

The boats motor starts to rumble, as we set off from the dock.

Me: "Oh look some ducks"

*Takes phone out of pocket. Holds with 2 flimsy hands*

Me: "Theres baby chicks! Let me get a little closer"

Phone: "What a wonderful hot day. Wow this water is so beautiful and clear. Ohh look at that a fish. How convenient that I am not held very tightly. I can finally be FREE!" *bounces of side of boat* "Ouch that hurt a little but who cares I can go swimming...... x.x"

And that is how I lost my phone to the fishies.

I am sure they are enjoying taking selfies of themselves.

The last photo I ever took with my phone, the happy days:

How will I ever Tinder??? Wait.. screw that... HOW WILL I INSTAGRAM?! 

Well hopefully new phone tomorrow. I've been searching on Kijiji for the past 3 days. I better get that phone tomorrow. 4s baby! What an upgrade. 

Till next time. 

The Grad

I forgot about this post. For some reason I thought I had already posted it.

So after spending 3 beautiful days in my university town, the day of my grad finally approaches (Wednesday). I wake up to violent rain drops against the door of the room, then to make things worse, I hear thunder. It so happens that on my graduation day - where I plan to take beautiful pictures on campus - it thunderstorms. My mom calls me letting me know they are on their way and that the rain is so bad they cannot see a meter ahead of them while driving. She then informs me we should wear rain boots - which none of us actually brought, but my mom always wants to state what we should do, rather than what is plausible at the moment.

So, in all my sorrow, I begin getting ready. I curl my hair, do my make-up and put on my pretty white dress, all to just make me feel better at this point.

Once my parents arrive the rain calms, so we rush into the car to get to campus and the ceremony building before we get soaked again (in case the rain starts up again - which it did).

We did get a couple of pictures in with the drizzling rain, better than nothing.

Then there was of course the actual grad (which I will post a video off later - I am still editing... and by still I mean I havent started).

And of course we took many more pictures! And then we stopped by my friends place to take pictures there.

We had dinner at the place I used to work at which was lovely! We got served by some of my favourite servers and I got to see and talk to my friend. 

I DID IT!! 5 long years, some of the best years of my life, and so many more exciting things to come!! 

The Pre-Grad

It has been a week since I graduated, I feel like a different person... well not really. I feel exactly the same, just more accomplished. Thank goodness I have this next year planned out, I don't know what I would do if I had no idea what it was that I was doing on my year off. France, france, france!

So I came to my university city 4 days in advance so I can see my friends, see my favourite city, and enjoy the student life once more.

Sunday I arrived first in Toronto, downtown, to spend the day with this lovely and beautiful girl:

She is an amazing person, who I am so glad to have met in my first year of university. I don't know how my life would have turned out without her. 

We spent the day eating, shopping (obviously), and [last minute] we got our nails done (like 5 minutes before I had to board the bus). 

I arrived at my destination at 8:45pm, which was an hour later than I was supposed to, but of course traffic was awful getting out of downtown. So I spent some time in Kingston watching Game of thrones with people and catching up on the little things. 

The next day I enjoyed a lovely walk through the city, indulged in a delicious birthday dinner, and attended a mature social gathering, birthday party. 

We did take one really classy #selfie. I happen to NOT be the birthday girl, but as everyone points out, this picture shows otherwise.

Grad post tomorrow. 

As we go on, we remember.....

all the times we, had together.

I remember when this song played at my high school graduation... oh those days, those awful days (that another blogpost).

I am graduation Uni soon! Technically I graduated last year, but I stayed for a fifth year, so now I am actually graduating!

I leave for my university home town tomorrow! So excited. I will hopefully be able to make a vlog of the couple days that I am there, I'll post it after I am done editing and all. Also I have a couple of things planned, so lets hope they all work out and things work in my favour!

Other than taking a whole bunch of OOTD pictures for my instagram, I haven't been up to much, hence why I haven't written anything.

Oh and I did my sisters hair.

Also i am way into hats now

Adventures at home/ приключения на тракторе

A couple of days ago my dad took me further up the land, in a tractor, to show me some ruffed grouse eggs and cool looking trees. 

Childhood fears of the dentist

Today I was supposed to go to the dentist to remove one wisdom tooth. 

This is me preparing for the battle:

I have a very huge fear of dentists. I get really nervous knowing something more major than a cleaning will happen. I am not sure why. I've never had any bad experiences. I just really hate the sound of the drill, and people looking into my mouth. 

Anyways, so I go to the dentist, I wait 3 hours... yeah I am not kidding, 3 hours. Only to enter the dentist's office, sit in the seat, and leave. Yup. I did not get my wisdom teeth removed. Why? Because the surgeon said there was no point just yet. I have grad coming up next week, they are not bothering me, and insurance cannot cover all four. He says I should wait till next year. 3 hours for that... 

Oh but something interesting did happen. When entering the dentists office two guys stood outside smoking, one decides to ask me "how are you doing" in a creepy, kind of way. Now let me paint you a picture, these guys had muscle shirts on, underwear showing, and a lot of "bros" and "yo". Then they happen to walk in right behind me.... great. We wait there together for 3 hours. They then start asking me things like how old I am (they were 23/22... apparently, they looked and acted about 17), whether I am Russian, my name, little things. 

Anyways after I am finished my chat with the surgeon, I walk out to meet the two again - Aaron and Sean. One, Aaron, happens to hand me an appointment card. Instead of an appointment he has his name and last name written on it. At the same time he says "Add me on Facebook". 

Well that was interesting. 

At least I still have all my teeth, for a year for sure. 

Be proud of your smile, no matter how crooked your teeth are, how many teeth you are missing, the space you have between your teeth, every smile is beautiful!